91: My experience with being awkward

I remember always being uncomfortable talking to people and not being comfortable in my own skin. I used to be extremely introverted and constantly worried about whether people see me as good enough or not. This insecurity caused me to miss out on a lot of opportunities in life and it gives me joy to look at who I am today and say that I’ve definitely grown in the past years of my life.

From not being able to look a stranger in the eye, from being sad about not being able to contribute in group conversations and from constantly being unsure of whether what I’m saying is appropriate to being someone who is able to have flowing conversations, crack the occasional joke and build rapport with others is something that means a lot to me and which I am really thankful for. A lot of the time, I hoped for an overnight transformation looking for some kind of inspiration that would allow me to make this change work, but I soon realized that the best way to allow this change to happen would be through practice and putting myself in uncomfortable and unfamiliar situations until I’m used to it.

Now that I’ve done that, I feel happy that things are better now, and would want people to know that as you grow, you’ll notice small changes that won’t necessarily stick out to you at first – but will make itself apparent when you look at how much you’ve grown over a long period of time.

Mark Biju – Reposted from youthof2020stories on Instagram, a humansof2020 initiative

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