During the pandemic, I lived alone. Even with the support of my family and friends the loneliness inside me grew, I couldn’t understand why I felt like this. Especially after a few months had gone by and the zooming reduced and when you realised that people will only message you if you message them first, leaving me feeling like I had no friends left.
This left me changing my habits and finding things about of myself I didn’t know existed. I couldn’t recognise myself. Just feeling low all the time and event to the point of not being able to think straight and/or do simple tasks.
However trying to bring balance back into my life, I started my journey to acceptance. Accepting that it is okay to not be around people or liked by people all the time, it is okay to stay in pyjamas for a day, it is okay to feel unaccomplished or behind as different peoples lives move at different rates.
After reading an inspirational book, which helped me along side these changes of habit I tried to live for myself and to find myself completely. And its a journey, trust me, it does not happen over night. The amount of times I went back to the set negative mind set is uncountable however after ever cry/argument I remembered the importance of a growth mind set and the significance of being one with yourself.
Anonymous – Reposted from youthof2020stories on Instagram, a humansof2020 initiative
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